This morning I put my ear against the wall and whispered encouraging words to our babies, feeling especially poignant as it is looking like this will be our last time to hear our friends. Who will make sure the house doesn't get tented during baby bird season? Who will love them like we do?
But then I think, it's a good thing I feel scared and sad to leave this house. It means we were happy, it means we had a good life here. I would love to stay here if we could, but we are renters and we've been paying eight years of rent. I am determined to make new memories at our new house. It's a good thing, I am just feeling like we are leaving behind a part of our life that we can't ever get back because children grow and people grow and now I have wrinkles I didn't have when we first moved in.
This is the first New Year's Resolution that I've ever kept this long, to try to appreciate what I have in the moment, my family and friends and happy things before we leave them behind for a new moment. Sometimes it's hard to remember what came before, I can't remember what Laura's voice sounded like when she was three, but boy can I remember sleepless nights with Jack screaming. So I try to enjoy this time and try to look forward to the future and the opportunity to have new happy moments. And I hope that whoever comes in here after us will feel it's a happy place and take care of it. And take care of our little birds.
|(my own little birds a few years ago)|